Genre: slash, non-established relationship, hurt/comfort (both brothers), S1 drama/case!fic, Sam POV
Pairings or Characters: Sam/Dean, Sam/Jess; Sam POV
Type of beta you'd like: Primarily, I'd love some feedback on the flow/pacing of the fic (the pacing is quite slow, and both Sam and Dean have all kinds of non-linear non sequitur thoughts; and I feel like some of the moments where the plot moves forward might be gimmicky/abrupt/inorganic). Other things: If anyone knows how to play poker, there's a scene that would probably benefit from some fact-checking... And as a primarily gen writer, it would be nice to know if my sex scenes sound stupid??? And if so, I'd love advice on how to make them more plausible.
Word Count: 43,400
Warnings: [Spoiler (click to open)]incest (I mean...obviously, but), emotionally complicated/dubious consent, grief/trauma, socioeconomic/psychological precarity, drug use not as prescribed, brief scene of prostitution, insinuations of suicide/suicidal ideation, a little vore
Summary: Still shaky from the events of 1x12 "Faith," Sam and Dean take one too many cases in quick succession and find themselves stranded, with Dean injured and Sam struggling to stand his ground against the insanities of grief, exhaustion, and what seems increasingly like the intractable oblivion of hunting. When a hunter turns up dead at their motel--because of course one does--they find themselves at an uncomfortable crossroads: Just trying to survive the job itself is probably going to kill them before their monster can. Sam's just not sure if it's going to be starvation, overdose, or hypothermia--or maybe it'll be that maxed-out fake health insurance thing. Or maybe it'll be his psychic freakshow thing, after all.
They'll need each other more than ever, but need is a complicated thing; and Sam and Dean are either the best thing for each other or the very worst. It's time to find out which.
Timeframe: This is for the wincestbb. I don't have a posting date yet, but posting begins on Nov. 1, so somewhere in the ballpark of mid/late October would be helpful?
Thank you in advance!